An outing with one of my besties

So yesterday i went out with my my childhood bestfriend. she just finally came back from Nigeriaafter 6 years. I'll just say that it is really good to have her around again. I love her so much! Anywho her and I went out yesterday and we are on the train. so i basically made it my duty to show her all around New York(although its not that exciting). She was so excited to finally go to the city(Manhattan) and see Time Square and see all the pretty lights and to see how New York looks like after 6 years(nothins change except for Metro fare). So we get on the train and this guy decides to sit at the very tiny edge of where my friend and i was sittin and he tells her to miove, i looked at him like he had 6 heads. i gave him a look that basically said " don't mess with me, u don't want it". So he looks back at me but still sits in the same seat. I rolled my eyes and turn my head. so after that some guys came on the train and started playin the drums and they were really good. So my friend and i gave them a dollar each, because i believe that people who work hard liek they didi to earn a dollar are worth giving money to. We got off at 50th street and walked towards her cuzzins office. We met up wit her and we all went togo eat at BBQ's. If guys forgot I am gonna remind u again, I LOVE FOOD! So when we got there we was all talkin and crackin jokes it was fun. but I was more concentrated on my food. It was spectacular. If u must know I had: FRIED CATFISH WITH YELLOW RICE. It was slamming! I love exploring the city and seein all the new stores they open and the old ones being remodled. next time we go into the City I wanna go see a Broadway Play. Her cuzzin said she was gonna get us a discount on the tickets and I really am excited to get a ticket. The first play I eva saw was "In the Heights" it was AMAZING! I had so much fun watchin it. it felt like a live television show even tho it was. I know I seem really excited but thats just how I am when it comes to things like this. I guess its because I love singing, dancing, and acting! If I had the oportunity to do any of these things I would take it within a heartbeat! *sigh* But then reality sets in and I realize that my parents will neva agreee with such a career choice. Oh well, I guess I can keep dreamin. Anywho, all and all I had fun in the City!

Will it ever be the same?

Its been a month and some change now that I have been single and lets just say it has not been easy for me. Nothin feels the same, I feel like I don't belong or betta yet I feel like something is missin. U eva feel like things couldn't get any worse than it already is? cause thats how I feel. He was everything I ever wanted in a man, when all I eva used to get was boi's. Howeva, I thank God that we got off on a good note, cause till today he is still there for me. Our situation was pretty complicated and we had to sacrifice the love we had for our future. I swear my life is like a freakin soaps opera, and all I can say is that baby u were my yesterday, today, tomorrow and future. Such is life that it can be so cruel to people. Sometimes I feel like maybe happiness wasn't meant for me. and if it is, then y am I still alone? After all the hurt and pain I finally found someone who made me forget about my past and look forward to a betta future. Someone who understood me maybe more than I understood myself. Someone who neva lied to me and was always honest and was there for me. U know the sayin when people fall in love they fall in love hard. I am one of those people, but I got a different spin to this theory. "People fall in love to be caught and the fear we have is Fallin and Breakin our heart" I took that chance with him and I neva once regreted it. I can't believe we are ova, its hard to process in my head, its truly unbearable to know that I will neva be able to touch u the way I used to and to kiss u the way we used to and to say wat I feel. If u are reading this I want u to know that: I neva knew any man in the year that I knew u. I am not to sure I can love again the way I love u. My heart is heavy and I feel like a part of me has died. Baby u were my other half and u completed me. Its painful knowing that I can neva be urs again. I wish I had the power to change certain things but I don't which is y I left it all in Gods hands. I wish u nothing but the best and that u find someone who will love u the way I did and possibly much more. I believe that things will change and that my happily ever after will come again. But untill then will things ever be the same?

New to this

So this is my first time on Blogger and i am pretty much new to this. I love bloggin, because it has a lot to do with writing. And ever since i can remember i loved writing, i used to write about random things, or jot down a few thing in my journal. Lets just say times were hard for me growin up and i had a lot of emotion to let off and the best way i knew how was to write it out. Howeva, now i can do it electronically and i will be online everyday to post up new things that has happened and of course my thoughts.