Will it ever be the same?

Its been a month and some change now that I have been single and lets just say it has not been easy for me. Nothin feels the same, I feel like I don't belong or betta yet I feel like something is missin. U eva feel like things couldn't get any worse than it already is? cause thats how I feel. He was everything I ever wanted in a man, when all I eva used to get was boi's. Howeva, I thank God that we got off on a good note, cause till today he is still there for me. Our situation was pretty complicated and we had to sacrifice the love we had for our future. I swear my life is like a freakin soaps opera, and all I can say is that baby u were my yesterday, today, tomorrow and future. Such is life that it can be so cruel to people. Sometimes I feel like maybe happiness wasn't meant for me. and if it is, then y am I still alone? After all the hurt and pain I finally found someone who made me forget about my past and look forward to a betta future. Someone who understood me maybe more than I understood myself. Someone who neva lied to me and was always honest and was there for me. U know the sayin when people fall in love they fall in love hard. I am one of those people, but I got a different spin to this theory. "People fall in love to be caught and the fear we have is Fallin and Breakin our heart" I took that chance with him and I neva once regreted it. I can't believe we are ova, its hard to process in my head, its truly unbearable to know that I will neva be able to touch u the way I used to and to kiss u the way we used to and to say wat I feel. If u are reading this I want u to know that: I neva knew any man in the year that I knew u. I am not to sure I can love again the way I love u. My heart is heavy and I feel like a part of me has died. Baby u were my other half and u completed me. Its painful knowing that I can neva be urs again. I wish I had the power to change certain things but I don't which is y I left it all in Gods hands. I wish u nothing but the best and that u find someone who will love u the way I did and possibly much more. I believe that things will change and that my happily ever after will come again. But untill then will things ever be the same?